I was trying to decide what would be the most propitious time to post a Christmas message or greeting to Newsvine and thereby the rest of the world. I wanted all to be exposed to my unbounded affection and magnanimity. I wanted to impress all with my obvious delight and happiness with them and the world they provide me to live in. And then I started crying.
I am not a devout person about anything. I don't consider myself a Christian or any other kind of coreligionist. I believe in a god but he is my personal creator and I don't share him with others except through my own works. But my god does include all of the other people in the world and this keeps me happy. I am happy until this time of year and that is when I start crying. A lot.
It is the time of the year when another year has come and gone and I haven't told everyone I know I love them. A new year is coming and I haven't prepared myself as well as I should have to contribute. I spend much of my time reflecting on might have beens and dreams for the future. And then I cry. A lot.
So, what makes me cry so much? It is all that reflecting and observing the world around me. I cry when I rejoice at all the friends I have. I cry when I become proud of family that is growing and supportive. I cry when I hear old people laugh and babies cry. I cry when my neighbor says hello and I know he is in pain. I cry when the sun shines and when it does not. I mostly cry in happiness and mirth. Seldom do I cry in pain or longing or grief. This time of year allows me to appreciate all that I sometimes ignore. So I cry a lot this time of year.
Most of all I cry when I realize we are all on this big, beautiful, blue ball together and it is more important we love than almost anything else we can do. Please join me and love others for the Holidays. I love you.