Telling Truths and Spreading Lies
The Old Fogey
I have always detested trolls. I have used many and various tactics over the years to avoid or convert trolls and to a great extent I have been successful. Today I had reason to believe I might have become a troll myself. I found myself sending a friend messages that I thought they needed to hear. I didn't stop with the first message. I subsequently wrote a private message. I didn't want to expose what I felt was their ignorance to the public. After all, they are my friend. I do respect them and their ideas. I care for them enough to want to help them see the light without having to open them to ridicule. In the process of doing this I became aware that I was acting like a troll. I am a troll and I wish I weren't but then I also wish I didn't feel driven to trolling by my own best wishes for others. My best solution is this essay. I hope it helps me and others.
It all started over my respect for our President. My love for him as a person and my admiration of him as a man, a father, a human and a leader all cause me to want to tell truths about him. I understand that others don't like him for one reason or another but I have difficulty with what seems to me unreasonable feeling, thought and yes, even hatred, towards President Obama. Just to be clear, our President is not the only thing, or the most important thing I feel strongly about. I have even stronger feelings about how we treat our planet Earth. I have stronger feelings about how we humans treat each other. I have stronger feelings about man's purpose and origin. This last brings me in to constant contact and contrast with the vast majority that accept religion but can't quite conceive of the God we Deists believe in. In all of these matters I have never felt like I was a troll. Now I feel I am becoming one. Not because I try to tell about my beliefs but because I feel so strongly about Obama and many I care for do not.
I could go on and on about my feelings and being a troll and my various beliefs and thoughts and my need to let others know where I stand. I won't. I will, instead, try to be a primer for those who want to discuss their needs and wants on the Internet yet feel they may offend a friend or loved one. Actually, I would prefer a way to not offend anyone. I would prefer the ability to conduct open and frank discussions without anyone being offended or turned away. That has to come from me and not from my readers or fellow online posters. I have to change and I think I have discovered, actually rediscovered, how to go about making that change. I must write.
I have come to an awakening and a decision. Henceforth if I feel compelled to go to extra lengths or to bend the ear of anyone I will instead write an essay. I will try to no longer harass or become a troll just to get feelings and/or thoughts across and off my chest. I will write an essay and make it available to the world and let my friends sort things out for themselves. My friends are too valuable to me to go about losing them over anything I have to say. Maybe if I write enough I can prevent those who will be offended from entering a friendship with me. That might save both them and me some embarrassment.
So now I go out into the wide open spaces of Facebook, Newsvine and other venues with a renewed effort to be heard while not offending. I will reserve, to the best of my ability, my Facebook comments to bland yet nonoffending blah while still posting essays such as this. I will be posting on Facebook as well as other places. I just hope people will see some difference between an essay and a remark directed solely toward them. Thanks for reading.